Erewhile

Strangers we are now
Invisible
As if our memories never mattered
Our memories were all, but, memories
Lost in time, forgotten perhaps
Almost two years of building something up
rubbles in a split second
Friendship I thought was for keeps,
I guess I was wrong.
Too good to be true or too blinded by the lies.

Your gaze, your nonchalance
As if I was nothing, worthless
All the while I poured my everything
I gave my all
Well, I know it's my fault, clearly, unfortunately.
Like broken glass, broken strings of an old guitar
It still plays
but not the same tune anymore,
not the same sound
Nothing's ever gonna be the same.

Your voice
your sweet voice that used to calm me
Now it irks me, like a siren in the middle of the night
unwelcoming, unsoothing
Disrupting my peaceful slumber
jolting me to oblivion

Your laugh
that angelic laughter that melts my very core,
now leaves me reaching for my earplugs
Volumes raised,
trying to drown the noise in whatever's playing

What used to inspire me,
now throws me off course
I hate it
Such a sad fate
How sad
How really really sad.


032814/ 1:35pm

The IELTS Results Are In!

Praise be to God!

I'm so happy that I was able to get the required band score needed for the scholarship (which was 6.5 for student visa), and even more! I am more than pleased with the results, considering I only had a month or less preparation. I guess the cramming hard work and prayers really did pay off.

Here's a screenshot of my scores I got from the British Council website:

For a first time taker, I guess I did a swell of a job. Now I can concentrate on collating my papers for submission.

I pray that everything will fall into its rightful places, in God's time and by His Will.


#happyshalalala

My 100 Dreams

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I have read somewhere that when you start feeling bored, you should write down your 100 dreams. Life is too short, too unpredictable to be wasting away with nonsensical things. There are many reasons for our lives to be more meaningful and awesome and wonderful. I was inspired to write down my own dreams. These may change 5 to 10 years from now. Hopefully by then, I have crossed out at least 50% of them, and be able to jot down some more.

Doing so, you are telling the Universe what you want, specifically. From the frivolous, to the extravagant, to the simplest of dreams... And by its cosmic powers and what-nots, they will all come true...eventually and in His time.

My 3/4 IELTS Experience

Last Saturday (March 15,) I had my written exam for the IELTS. It is one of the requirements for the scholarship I will be applying for. The deadline for the said scholarship is on April 30, meaning I have to make sure my papers are complete 2-3 weeks prior before I pouch them. Aside from getting the required overall bandscore width (6.0 for student visa for Australia), I need to secure government clearances such as NBI Clearance for International Travel, renew my PRC ID and Driver's License. This means putting another hole in my, er, Mom's wallet. :) As of the moment, she already cashed  out about P15,000 for review and exam fees. At least the exam fee is reimbursable once successful.

My 1/4 IELTS Experience

Clammy hands. Sweating profusely. Stammering. Stuttering...

It was the first time in a long time when I felt that way. The last was during my Architecture Board Exam, which was three years ago. I felt a mixture of excitement and nervousness, but this time it was different. Maybe because I only prepared for a month or even less? Having attended only the major subjects in my review class (I enrolled for the unlimited review course at 9.0 Niner Ielts Review Center Taft Branch.) I don't want to be so negative about it, but for the first time in my life - having taken thousands of exams, this was the most nervous I got. Not even the Civil Service Professional Exam or the board exam made my nerves go haywire. Perhaps, I was not rested enough, just came from a 2-day trip from our Amazing Race, Visayas Edition (will blog about it soon)? I really just don't know.

When Life Gives You Lemons.... Make Lemon Water

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I have just started a new regimen. As I was browsing through the Internet for the recipe, turns out it has a name, and it's called Sassy Water. It's an infusion of water, lemon, cucumber, mint leaves, and ginger. I have been drinking the concoction since Saturday, and I have to say, it proves to be working, just as the articles I've read claim.